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Name: David
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Friday, November 13, 2009

Inner Thoughts

Last Wednesday after a grueling 11 hrs of work, i headed towards small group.   I have not been to bible study for the longest of times.   Work has been so hectic and there isnt a community of people studying the bible that I enjoy enough to make that sacrifice for.  I am a  people person.  It should be about me and god but i need that crutch sometimes.  Me and jeremy were suppose to go to small group together to check it out because the new pastor was Thomas was leading bible study and he is pretty legit.  

Jeremy ended not going cuz Ahao was in town and wanted to take Jeremy out for dinner for his birthday. Completely understandable. Those two guys have not been hanging out enough.  I call up Jane cuz i dont want to go alone and she says NO.   Debating between going to bible study or going to D and B's for half off games and half off drinks at this point with Jane.  She doenst want to go to bible study with me but is down to kick it.  Hhahaha NO TEMPTRESS!!! haha i kid. So i go to bible study by myself.  This is pretty huge for me cuz i have this thing i call "lonerphobia."  I dont go anywhere by myself really.  To the mall, walk across campus,  dinner, or even movies.  I have never been able to understand those individuals that can enjoy a day by themselves eating dinner at a nice place and sitting by themselves in a movie theater.  I think of that Friends episode where Rachel does it and the guy she likes sees her do it and completely runs away.

I am in bible study and its been so long since i have read the word.  The problem and greatness of the bible is that it never changes.   Only your ( as well as men, the world, and the people that use the bible to their own gains.  I realize this) perception of it changes.  You read it again and again and you are suppose to take something new from it all the time.   God has bestowed on me the wisdom to understand his word and really see deeper into the scripture.  He, however, has not given me full humility causing me to have a hardened heart towards the scripture.   I could not receive the complete blessing of the words. As i sat there, i continued to pray so i can really see the words with new eyes appreciating each verse.  My prayers were sorta answered.  I will continue to go.



All the while I was at small group,  I checked out all the girls and guys.   When Kanye West was once asked how does he reconcile the fact that he proclaims to be a devout Christian while his lyrics and sometimes actions do not match with the image of what Christians should be, he answered sometimes you go to church but you are checking out the girl in the dress three rows from you.   I understand what he is saying but we can not just stop there.  

So i was checking out the girls and the guys (no homo) and i was wondering hmmmmmm,...... can i worship alongside these people.   Like seriously does it even matter how good looking a person is to worship god.  It has no relavence of a person's spiritual depth and there is no correlation between good looks and faith and works.   At that moment i realized how deep my shallowness ran.  

I dont know why it would matter to me.  Maybe its the wave of college friends that are getting engaged and i want to know that i would have some choices in my church when the time came around for me to settle down.   Like where are u suppose to find a good christian girl.  Not the clubs thats for sure.  

I think in the last two years i must have dated 7 girls.   Of those seven girls, none of them came from my church.  You only get to date one per church and then its done.  Its like messing up with one girl and then trying to date her best friend. The church is like that close.  My own church in which  I have gone for like the last 4 years, I havent even talked to them in that manner.  

I just need to learn to commit to a community and really just force myself to shed this shallowness and see people for who they really are and their true worth.   Cuz isnt that what we all want, to be loved as we are.  

I miss my college bible study and my class of friends.  We grew alongside each other for like 4 years and we knew each other's struggles.  There was so much intimacy and comfort.  We were all bible study leaders and knew each other's legitimacy.  Not that when these other guys arent legit its just hard to have ears to hear and eyes to see.    I miss you guys.  

//End bible rant


Tuesday, November 10, 2009

Meaning

I am constantly looking for the meaning and purpose behind things.  I don't believe that the world is a series of coincidences and that our encounters with one another don't have a huge underlying purpose that I have yet to see or uncover.  I had an appointment with a 52 year old lawyer today who was also a CPA.  Quite impressive i might add.  

After he bought what i was selling, we started to just talk about life and girls and marriage and the sorts.  He taught me a lot, like not get married until 30 and never get intimate unless she is the one cuz things will get sticky.   He told me, "Friends either come in your life for a reason, a season, or a lifetime."  I have put much thought in this but it was so eloquently put. And its so true.  And the biggest takeaway from this is to be able to be okay with this.  People will come in and out of your lives.  Some will stay for a while and some if we are lucky we stay a lifetime. 

I am only 23 years of age and so far my deepest friends are the ones that have been with me through high school, college, and post college.  The ones that have been around for college and post college are pretty legit. I see them staying around for a lifetime but who knows.   Time will tell.  I am excited.  Growing older isnt all that bad. 

How many friends do you guys have that you think will last the lifetime? You guys lost any friends that were only there for a season and you wish they stayed a bit longer?   And i have still yet to discover the reasons I have met some of the people in my life, have you?  


Monday, November 09, 2009

I never want a daughter

My 18 year old friend is in her first year at college. she is really cute and is like my little sister so i have to like give her lessons on boys and shit. i dont want her to get hurt and dicked around cuz college sucks for a lot of girls that go out and party a lot. i have seen it done and done.   Hopefully she will find a good man that will love on her like she deserves, if only she knew what really mattered in a quality guy.

AznDood4You (9:37:58 PM): how is studying
AznDood4You (9:38:01 PM): and dont let boys play you
AznDood4You (9:38:02 PM): my dear
AznDood4You (9:38:03 PM): go for a godo guy
AznDood4You (9:38:04 PM): plz
AznDood4You (9:38:06 PM): cna u please!
awcrapitsher (9:38:08 PM): lol how
awcrapitsher (9:38:16 PM): ncie guys are ugly and boring
awcrapitsher (9:38:20 PM): more ugly than boring though
AznDood4You (9:38:23 PM): hahah
AznDood4You (9:38:24 PM): i know
AznDood4You (9:38:31 PM): but good looking guys are douches
awcrapitsher (9:38:31 PM): lol do u know why nice guys can't get girls
awcrapitsher (9:38:34 PM): its cz they're ugly
AznDood4You (9:38:35 PM): and they dont treat girls welll
awcrapitsher (9:38:38 PM): not cz they're douschebags
AznDood4You (9:38:42 PM): i know!
AznDood4You (9:38:48 PM): but looks dont matter
AznDood4You (9:38:51 PM): when u get cheated on
AznDood4You (9:38:54 PM): and when he treats u like shit
AznDood4You (9:38:58 PM): and goes out drinking wiht his friends
AznDood4You (9:39:00 PM): and shit
AznDood4You (9:39:05 PM): his good looks aint gonna mean shit
awcrapitsher (9:39:34 PM): lol yeah but i don't wanna bring an ugly bf around to my friends
awcrapitsher (9:39:38 PM): heyyy here's my uglyass boyfriend
awcrapitsher (9:39:43 PM): blah blah he's ugly but at least he's nice
awcrapitsher (9:39:44 PM): -_______________--
AznDood4You (9:40:04 PM): haha lolz!
AznDood4You (9:40:05 PM): i know
AznDood4You (9:40:06 PM): what u mean
AznDood4You (9:40:08 PM): find a in between
AznDood4You (9:40:09 PM): haha
AznDood4You (9:40:11 PM): the better looking
AznDood4You (9:40:13 PM): the more douchey
AznDood4You (9:40:17 PM): its almost guaranteed
AznDood4You (9:40:18 PM): lolz
awcrapitsher (9:40:21 PM): i know i don't like douschebags lol
awcrapitsher (9:40:25 PM): i like bamfs
awcrapitsher (9:40:33 PM): but not jerks
awcrapitsher (9:40:39 PM): usually if they're bamfs they're jerks too though
AznDood4You (9:40:39 PM): bamfs?
AznDood4You (9:40:41 PM): what is that
awcrapitsher (9:40:48 PM): bad ass mofo
awcrapitsher (9:40:52 PM): lol u never heard of bamf???
awcrapitsher (9:40:53 PM): just like
awcrapitsher (9:40:54 PM): bad
AznDood4You (9:41:52 PM): haha lolz
AznDood4You (9:41:54 PM): nver heard
AznDood4You (9:41:55 PM): but sure
AznDood4You (9:41:56 PM): why not
AznDood4You (9:41:58 PM): anyways
AznDood4You (9:41:59 PM): u are cute
AznDood4You (9:42:00 PM): little
AznDood4You (9:42:03 PM): dont let guys
AznDood4You (9:42:07 PM): hit it and quit it
AznDood4You (9:42:08 PM): alrihgt
AznDood4You (9:42:09 PM): <IMG height=15 src=" src="aolbart:/1024/id/2B00000281/3A2D29" unselectable="on" contenteditable="false">
AznDood4You (9:42:12 PM): not matter how nice they are
AznDood4You (9:42:13 PM): cuz
AznDood4You (9:42:17 PM): any guy can pretend to be nice
AznDood4You (9:42:19 PM): for 3 months
AznDood4You (9:42:20 PM): that is easy
AznDood4You (9:42:27 PM): it takes every little effort to leada  girl on
awcrapitsher (9:43:54 PM): hahahhaha
awcrapitsher (9:43:57 PM): yeah i know right
awcrapitsher (9:43:58 PM): argh



Saturday, November 07, 2009

new laptop

Best Buy has Toshiba L505D-S5983 laptop for $349.99 with $14.99 shipping. Thank you hc000

Specs

  • 15.6" 1366x768 HD LCD Display
  • AMD Athlon IIldual-core processor M300, 2Ghz
  • 3GB DDR2 Memory
  • 320GB 5400RPM Serial ATA hard drive
  • ATI Radeon 4100 Graphics Accelerator
  • Multiformat DVD±RW/CD-RW drive with double-layer support
  • Wireless (802.11b/g)
  • 6-cell lithium-ion battery
  • Microsoft Windows 7 Home Premium Edition
  • Weighs 6 lbs. and measures just 1.6" thin
Should i pull the trigger? I really should stay off slickdeals now that i make a bit of m oney.  


Friday, November 06, 2009

Diffusion of Responsibilty to the MAXXXXX!!! WHAO!!!

Nov. 5) -- An 18-year-old mother from Richmond, Calif., has the distinction of being the only person of dozens who knew about the ongoing gang rape of a 15-year-old to actually alert the police.
For more than two hours, the victim was raped by a group of young men after leaving a high school dance. As many as 20 people stood and watched the ordeal, some even taking pictures, police said.

Holy crap.   I am speechless.  FOR TWO FREAKEN HOURS! SO DISGUSTING!!!!



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